For months I have made 24 hours a day into 36. Between a new baby, a budding business and working 9pm-7am at the Newswire, I have barely been able to formulate a complete thought lately. Something had to give and I don’t think Auggie has any plans to move out a get a job anytime soon, nor is Mimi Green going to be shelved. But I really like the people I work with at the Wire too and I like the security it gives me. I have shed a lot of tears trying to make a good decision.
But then a week and a half ago I am sitting there and out of the blue a Kafka quote appears in front of me. He says, “Follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.”
So, as risky as it is, I decided to leave the Newswire. Tuesday, July 15th will be the final day that I am wide-awake while the rest of the world is soundly sleeping. I am following my obsessions mercilessly, a little feverishly, and with much excitement.
The upside is that Mimi will get great attention, I will actually get to spend time with my kids and husband, and I will have time again for leisurely activities like yoga and hiking.
The downside is that I won’t spend 10 hours a day laughing with some of the wittiest people I have ever met, but I figure when I am up working long nights in the studio I will give them a call to remind them about things like the invisible manatee.
I have to say that leaving this job feels like breaking up with a boyfriend. I’ve laughed, I’ve cried, I’ve yelled, and I’ve lost a lot of sleep. But all in all I feel super satisfied with my decision.
Next week I will be waking up as the sun rises, making my espresso drink, and starting my day here, in my new and improved studio space:
I LOVE that Kafka quote! I’m glad you’re pursuing your passion, and all of us here at the wire wish you the best of luck with your new adventures (not that you need it!). 🙂